I'm so tired.
I'm sure you all heard the complaint said around the world "I'm so tired" by moms, especially new moms, being tired but man it's no joke. I'm sure there will be light at the end of the long 18 year tunnel but for now taking it day by day seems like the only sane thing to do. Perhaps, I've taken on too much at once.
Some of things going on in my life, in no particular order.
- Trying to design and launch a new blog, this one, while trying to consistently create content.
- Move into and furnish a new studio. Yes, I signed a lease to a new makeup/photos studio that will be all mine, with a studio mate. Now, cleaning, organizing, furnishing, decorating a new space is kind of a lot to take on.
- Gearing up for wedding season. I guess wedding season has somewhat commenced. So, signing the lease on the new space, moving in a day before 3 full days of work plus 2 celebrations. It took about 2 days for my body to fully recover.
- Trying to redo my website. It might not seem so but man does that take up a lot of time. A lot. Not to mention lots of "disagreements" with hubby.
- Trying to maintain an orderly household. Operative word is trying. I've not quite mastered this yet or will I ever. Every time I think the house is in ok condition, I turn around it's turned upside down again.
- Raising the most sweetest little boy who lifts me up at the flash of a smile but also has the power to tear me down with one fussy spell.
- Looking for childcare options for Loki, not as easy as I expected.
Each individual item I listed isn't so hard to manage by it self but if thrown on top of a million other things, it's the juggling of each moving part that I find hardest to maintain. Might I add, having only a 2.5 hour window, during Loki's nap time, to achieve said tasks, mostly without the help of childcare, is the real icing on the cake. And because I've taken on so much, the mom guilt is in overdrive because I don't feel like I'm giving him my 100%.
I'm hoping once I'm settled in my space, have a good system going I'm able to tackle more of my creative ideas and be a better mom and wife. But until then, I guess this is the joy of parenting and running your own business.
If any moms out there have a secret sauce to this parenting thing, I gladly take all the advice in exchange for Tequila. Lots and lots of Tequila.